Belonging

I have struggled with the idea of belonging since I left my parents' home to live with my person. Moving out felt amazing in a sense of independency, commitment to my person and the creation of new traditions, customs and memories. 
What I did not expect was to come across this struggle of belonging. To feel at home, felt like having to travel back to where I grew up and to spend time with "my" people, the ones I spent my younger years with. After a couple of years as we transitioned to the current town we are in, I came across a church that gave me the opportunity to feel welcomed while introducing me to what community is. Even though, we lived in this town for a little while, there was little to no connection to folks. This left me with a sense of being lost and/or not belonging. I will forever be grateful to my church friends for teaching me what community is in their own way. 
As time has moved on, I have continued to struggle with this sense of belonging in different parts of my life. As a spiritual person I have always done my best to hold the bigger picture, however, the feeling was constant. While I have met amazing folks and have connected, I continued to feel as if I did not belong. 
One day I decided to sit with plant medicine as it called me to do so and in my journey with it, I was able to feel this sense of belonging. It came through the land and the realms of the elements. Stepping aside from the human experience, the animals, and fire among others welcomed me in a way that felt unique, inviting and welcoming. As weeks go by, I begin to have a sense of the need to honor Earth and the resources it provides us with. Yes, recycling, less usage and what not, however it is more than that. Creating a relationship with the Earth and its resources in connection to myself and the parts of me that are fueled by them is of the essence. 
This relationship continues to grow as I became responsible for the nourishment of a group and in doing so, I have come to experience and understand that my need stems for connection and relationship building with the land before anything else. 
I am Earth, Water, Air and Fire among other elements that exists within me. To honor myself, I must be in unison with the land. I am not here to fit into anything but my own true path. This is the key to belonging, at least for me!!